Last time I wrote about breaking in wholeness, about how our hearts break but who we are is not broken (read it here). Now let me tell you about another kind of breaking in wholeness. This wholeness that we are, it's our birthright. It's not something we achieve. It's not a goal we attain. There isn't anything we need to do to get it. It simply is.
I imagine wholeness like a gift in a neat and shiny wrapper that we receive upon being born. This gift holds within it the promise of true harmony and access to our own unconditional love. This gift is so new. So special. So precious. So precious, in fact, that it gets put up on a shelf and admired every now and again from afar. "Oh, remember that wholeness?" we may ponder as we walk by. "Isn't it beautiful?"Two seconds later, we've forgotten all about this beautiful gift that we are, and we're swept up again by the never-ending, always-changing waves of life.
But wholeness isn't some pretty little gift to be kept in its shiny wrapper up on a shelf. This wholeness that we are needs to be broken in. Used. Utilized. Exercised!
We want to know our own wholeness intimately. We want to know its contours, its shape, how it feels from the inside. We want to detect its delicate fragrance among all other scents. To know its particular exquisite taste. We want to return to the felt-sense of wholeness again and again with such frequency that it begins to feel like it's always here (because it is).
We don't want to forget about wholeness for long and then remember it for a fleeting moment. We don't want to live a lifetime and only remember it towards the end. We don't want a rare blissful meditation to be our one time encounter with it. And we definitely don't want hardship and challenges to push us so low, so far, that we reach for wholeness as a last resort. Nope, that simply won't do.
Like a favorite chair or old jeans, we want wholeness to be broken in just right, just so, that it feels like a return home. Yes, like a pair of the coziest worn-in slippers waiting by the door. So familiar, so welcoming, so safe that everything in life--the good, the bad, the ugly--feels manageable. More than manageable, actually. We want wholeness so broken in that it feels like we're always home. Always loved. Always belong. Always ok. Always.
While I'm off on a summer break (Aug 4 to Aug 26), I invite you to inquire into your wholeness. Take this precious gift off the shelf and feel it. Not sure how? I (re)offer you this FREE MEDITATION on the abundant wholeness that you are @ shiraozsinai.com/blog/just-being-abundance-free-meditation.
And if you want more support, I encourage you to go ahead and book a private acupressure session for when I return (the first few weeks are quickly filling up) @ schedulicity.com/scheduling/SORJJM/services.
May we all know the wholeness that we are, intimately.
-- Shira Oz-Sinai
One of the hardest lessons I’ve had to learn is that self-love requires work. For years, I roamed this earth subconsciously expecting that self-love would spontaneously generate itself in me. I thought it was something that you were born with and that it showed up when you needed it. I was both totally right and totally wrong.
The harsh truth is that self-love is like a muscle that you just have to keep on exercising. Odd as it may sound, meeting what’s unfolding in your life with compassion and kindness is a choice. You could just as easily choose not to meet it at all or meet it with a self-criticizing, self-belittling, never-self-forgiving attitude. It is primarily a choice—one that requires attention, focus, and work.
But there’s another kind of embracing love that requires no decision. It is immediate and innate, effortless and always present. This love is you. It is your presence, your existence, your true nature. This presence that you are does not say: “First be perfect and then I’ll let you exist!” Nope, the unconditional love that you are knows no ban, no boundary, no limit.
Your loving presence already welcomes you into life with all your thoughts and all your emotions and all your physical sensations, with everything labeled negative and everything labeled positive, with all your stories and wants, plans and dreams. You are always and already accepted into this present moment, just as you are. Now what you do with it, that’s wholly up to you.
P.S. Not sure how to work on self-love or how to feel into the love that you are? Contact me for a free consultation, schedule a private session, or check out upcoming classes.
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Shira Oz-Sinai is a spiritual teacher trained in iRest® Yoga Nidra meditation and Soul Lightening Acupressure®, two modalities that share the common principle of noticing what arises in awareness as the foundation to living life with ease and in deep and loving friendship with yourself. These are her musings.